The song of the moment is "Climbing the Walls" by Stir, from the album Holy Dogs.
I'm finding that a little bit of patience goes a long way. Thanks to John and Justin, here, I've managed to stabilize myself. I'm making connections, and even doing a little bit of work. Things are looking great right now!
It's amazing how a small amount of persistence can turn into such a great deal of good feeling. A few weeks ago, things felt rather hopeless. I had my phone shut off without warning, I never got my stuff sent to me from California, and I still hadn't found a job. However, I did my best to keep my chin up in the face of adversity. I'm not the type to give up easily, and the consistent and totally unconditional support I've had here has been just the kind of thing I've dreamed of for years.
For the first time in my life, I feel like I can be myself and still make progress. I have almost no friction here. Little by little, I'm starting to make progress in the right directions - physically, mentally, socially, and monetarily. John bought me a phone, I got a couple of clients for computer repair (and a few other little things), and someone even bought me a power supply for my laptop in return for doing a reformat of his computer.
I think I'm finally starting to learn what it feels like to overcome, and move forward. I've never felt so free. So, to anyone reading this, please remember that when things take a turn for the worst, look for the truth, and trust your own feelings - there are many possibilities in life, and the only way you'll ever be truly happy is to follow the ideals you hold closest to your heart...